1. |
Shaking
03:45
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I felt this time was doing better
On the road to recovery
But I opened my eyes to the stranger's face
This wasn't how it was supposed to be
(oh oh) you're shaking you're shaking it off
(oh oh) the news they're breaking to you
(oh oh) you're shaken, you're shaken up
oh oh
And where do I go? What will you do for me?
I can't pretend to comprehend through the morphine haze
The dead give away. Who is this stranger at my bed?
(oh oh) you're shaking you're shaking it off
(oh oh) the news they're breaking to you
(oh oh) you're shaken, you're shaken up
oh oh
Should have never found out this way.
Then the stranger says it will be okay.
(oh oh) you're shaking you're shaking it off
(oh oh) the news they're breaking to you
(oh oh) you're shaken, you're shaken up
oh oh
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2. |
This Body
04:24
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Don't know how to feel sure of my body.
I've never been quite so betrayed.
With the stigma attached I feel a real disconnect
Between what's normal and what is insane.
And I hate this body. It's unpredictability.
Move softly on thin ice cause the next step it might kill me.
Now what can you see in the pictures?
Is there evidence of a new disease?
Should I be holding my breath?
Prepare for worst or for best?
Where to channel my anxieties.
And I hate this body. It's multi complexities.
I crashed right through the thin ice waiting for metastasis.
All bottled and boiled, volcanic eruptions
The fear of my own death from which I live under
But the sun it will rise it will clear my head
Wipe the crust from my eyes cause I'm still breathing
It's a fragile existence for everyone
Cause one day you might be here then the next second you're gone
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3. |
Regret
04:59
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I'm so sorry, don't wanna drag you down
But I'm so worried and I'm glad that you're around
Prove you love me, now you have your chance
But I often wonder if that's too much to ask.
Will you regret being with me when I suck your life dry with my disease?
Hold me upright cause I'm too weak to stand
I'm trying so hard, be patient understand
But that look on your face, dear I apologize
I'm yours forever and I owe you my life
But did you regret being with me when I sucked your life dry with my disease?
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4. |
Wish You Were Around
04:20
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I wish you were around so I could thank you
For figuring it out
How to go on when you're down
I wish you were around
I see you in her eyes
The funny things you said all echo in her smile
I wish you were around so I could show you
How your strength would pull me up
When I was feeling down
I wish you were around
But there's no turning back
Forget about yesterday
It will swallow you whole it will eat you up
If you let it get its way
Still I couldn't hold you up
I could not take away your pain
And it really fucked you up
Will you please forgive me
I wish you were around
I wish you were around
I wish you were around to see the day
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5. |
How Can You Dance?
03:15
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How can you dance?
You look so goddamn foolish
How can you dance?
When all your dreams are lies, lies, lies
How can you smile when they steal your soul
Right out from under your eyes. Right in front of your eyes
How can you dance?
When they riddle your body with bullets
They'll let you dance but they won't let you survive
So how can you smile?
When they murder your spirit right in front of your eyes
Right in front of your eyes.
Why aren't you crying and why are you screaming?
For once in your life can't you act like a human being?
So how can you dance?
Is there nothing left to stop you?
They cut off your arms, cut off your feet
But you're still reaching for the sky
How can you smile?
When they mutilate your lips and stab out your eyes
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6. |
Great Escape
04:49
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I cut my hair and dyed it a shade of blue
I inked my arm forever with the memory of you
The matching rings displayed on our tiny hands
The kind of bond that no one will comprehend
Who will mind?
Who will care?
Look no further and I'll be there
When it's coming down on you like a boulder
Beneath the waves and through the burning flames
When you're caught in the downward spiral at the moment
Please let me be
Your great escape
Will you hold your breath when waiting for the news?
The anxious ghost is always inside of you
In the darkest space, you're never going to make it back
From behind your walls and wearing that happy mask
Who will mind?
Who will care?
Look no further and I'll be there
When it's coming down on you like a boulder
Beneath the waves and through the burning flames
When you're caught in the downward spiral at the moment
Please let me be
Your great escape
Your great escape
Your great escape
Won't you let me be the one to take the pain away
Your great escape
Your great escape
Won't you let me take the pain, and take it all away
When it's coming down on you like a boulder
Beneath the waves and through the burning flames
When you're caught in the downward spiral at the moment
Please let me be
Your great escape
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7. |
Falls Down On Me
01:20
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Sometimes I live
But sometimes I break down
When it's heavy
And the world falls on me
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endlessly Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
In 2014, I was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. I was young & healthy at the time. This record is a reflection of the feelings I've bottled up, the challenges I've endured, the hurdles I've overcome but mostly it's about death- a subject I've come all too familiar with. I hope it helps another survivor feel normal. I hope you gain a deeper understanding of living life with disease. XO RW ... more
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